54 Hit Points: Breaking the Loop in Life

54 Hit Points
4 min readMay 13, 2020

Throughout the years, I found myself in rough spots where I had to “break the loop.” Sometimes, life forces you to start breaking the loop in some shape or form for your sanity. These loops represent big chunks of time that occupy so much of our existence.

Many of us go through these moments where monotony begins to develop, which triggers an autopilot of sorts. Everything becomes a blur. The loop starts taking over.

Days turn into weeks. Weeks start transitioning into months. Then out of the blue, full-blown years go by right before your eyes.

Natural Loops

These loops can be tricky because they happen so naturally. We build up a routine based on habits and circumstances. In a way, it is easier to let yourself go with the flow instead of forcing something else to occur.

After all, change is scary. The current standard of “normal” for our respective lives is what most would prefer. Too much chaos makes everything erratic.

It is safer and more predictable when everything has its rhyme and reason. There are fewer variables to worry about, but this comes at a cost.

Life becomes too stagnant. No real progress occurs when everything follows the same pattern again and again. Again and again. Again and again.

It gets old fast when you finally realize what is happening.

Source: Pixabay

A Different Path

In a way, life made more sense to me when I realized that mixing things up is perfectly fine to change course. We all need some variety to spice our existence up.

Something had to shift. A part of me could acknowledge that things did not feel “right.”

Like many people out there, I found myself just surviving for the sake of surviving. I did just enough to keep myself afloat, but I discovered an unfortunate penchant to let bad events take place before I could stop them altogether.

So it would be one thing after another for me. Lack of money. A lack of this or that. A newfound problem to complicate matters. At this stage, I felt stuck in my loop.

Thus, it is way worse to be in this state than in a constant loop. At least in a loop, you are technically always moving. Sort of, anyway.

Nevertheless, the universe deciding to shake things up with some challenges can be a good wake-up call.

However, the weird nuance is you might end up back in a similar loop once you correct a given mistake. Essentially, you are just caught in the same looping path once again.

To End Up Somewhere Else Means to Go Somewhere Else

Common sense would suggest we just GO somewhere else if we want to be somewhere else. However, for whatever reason, that may not be possible (at least in the moment).

In theory, it sounds so easy. In practice, we face restrictions due to circumstances.

Maybe it costs too much money. Perhaps it is not that simple to pivot toward something else on the fly.

I believe making deviations can and will take a lot of time. For me, I am perfectly content with being as patient as possible while making gradual progress toward where I want to be.

At this stage in my life, I do not have the luxury to wait another decade for things to happen. The loops come and go, and those years I “lost” will never return in the form of a life-equivalent reimbursement.

They are gone. I missed my chances in those years, yet I can still make things right going forward.

Even if it may take awhile, we all need to force ourselves to break the loop.

Source: Pixabay

No More Circles

Putting together this blog and the YouTube channel has been a step in the right direction for me to break the loop. I still have a ways to go before I want to be where I want to end up at (or so I think), but things are making me feel better just going through with it all.

I cannot see the future, plus I cannot predict what will happen. But remaining optimistic is vital.

We try to break loops because we grow weary of how things are. For me, for a long time now, I have felt so trapped in my existence.

The only chance for me to get away from it all is to go in a different direction.

It frightens me. The prospect of things going pear-shaped and turning out wrong can take place. But — and this is a big one — I have to bank on the possibility of things going incredibly right instead!

(Featured Image used for this post was from Pixabay).

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Originally published at https://54hitpoints.com on May 13, 2020.

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